Twenty Eleven
New Year Resolutions for 2010:
1. Begin to intercede, give physical aid, preach th liberating Word of God, heal hurts through th power of God, and so forth, draw closer to God’s heart.
2. Show a better and higher form of communication above just words.
3. Deeper partnership with th Spirit, more focus and discipline in my studies. To get above 3 points for final results and not take time for granted anymore.
4. Trusting God, walking in faith. Dependence on Jesus and not man.
5. Fruit of the Spirit love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Grow better in these aspects! (:
6. More discipline in my thought and prayer life.
7. Change my bad attitudes to be more willing and obedient.
8. Touch my family’s life in anyway possible and begin to show more love to them. Investing time and not let them worry so much.
9. Have better time and financial management! (VERY IMPORTANT.)
10. Grow closer and build more relations within Cell group.
11. Higher level of maturity and vision in becoming a cell group leader!
12. Learn more and be molded in Media – to be Sounds IC!
13. Not just talk th talk, but WALK the TALK.
14. Go for Mission Trip!
15. Spend more quality time not just reading, but studying th Word
I remember making 80% of my resolutions the same of 2009 for 2010. Looking at them now, surely keeping them all would be something. But honestly, I did not keep all of them. Some are accomplished and met, others not; but i believe there are even greater in store in 2011.
A min more and it’s into the new year. Everyone’s cheering, I hear fireworks somehow. It’s still the same every year that I stare infront of this screen while everyone is celebrating the new year. But what’s different is the heart and mind facing this new year. With a whole new season and a whole new level of even greater with God, I’m still asking for more.
Perhaps I’m trying to be chilled and cool. I hear the screams and cheers of the new year outside my window, but I’m just sitting here taking it with a smile in my heart. Saying “God, I’m ready.”
“…to face this whole new season with You. To fix my eyes on You every step of the way. To keep my heart beating closely in time with Yours and to fill my thoughts with Your words daily.”
This year I’m working towards a deeper level of growth, discipline and faith. Tapping on His love through this year. There’s no other way to live 2011, there’s no other way to live life, than with You.
Writings.
Eunice.
To Think
I might have nearly forgotten I had wordpress. Totally caught up with work even after hectic weeks. Tons still undone and towards the things that I need and want to do, this year can’t just end yet! But it is ending and what’s the best thing is, I believe so much greater is in store in the year to come! Been looking back and thinking all morning (despite looking at Mircosoft Excel for those who know). I can’t fathom how far I’ve come, with the people around me, with God, by God, in God! Thank God for everything!
Oh and have anyone noticed my room is painted? Yes. I’m left with designing it! Hee! Oh oh and I heard this song a few days back. Here you go.
Hee. Back to work. Wait, I haven’t eaten breakfast on the table.
E.
What Makes You Nervous
Whenever Michael Jordan gets on the golf course and his friends ask the stakes of the game–how much money they’re betting against one another–rumor has it that his stock response is: “Whatever makes you nervous.”
That’s what you should bet on yourself, every time. Not what makes you comfortable, but what makes you nervous.
Your muscles get stronger by running, jumping, lifting weights, by stressing them out, by pushing them, not by sitting on the couch.
Mario Andretti said famously: “If everything seems under control, you’re not going fast enough”.
And the one-liners could go on and on… Point being that you’ve got to push your comfort level to grow. That goes for your photography, your filmmaking, your art, your vision, your business, your whatever.
You will not succeed if you do not take risks.
– Chase Jarvis
Heart’s Desire
The fear of the Lord encompasses the love of what God loves as well as to hate what He hates. What’s important to Him becomes important to us, and what is not so important to Him is not so important to us. We make His priorities and desires, our own. The manifestation of the fear of the Lord is unwavering obedience to the desires and will of God.
We can know the talk, but do we know the Voice? We know the acts, but do we know His ways? We know what He said, but do we know what He is saying?
Titus 2:11-14
For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people. It teaches us to say “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for the blessed hope—the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us to redeem us from all wickedness and to purify for himself a people that are his very own, eager to do what is good.
God is passionate about His relationship with those who love Him as He has loved them. We are unable to try and hold onto both the things of the world and the things of God, our self desires and God’s desires.
Even Paul wrote, “But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ – the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith.” (Phil 3:7-9)
For He is a God who is passionate about His relationship with you. He bought you with a high price. So, don’t just know all that were told and said. Don’t be enslaved by the world. But make what is important to Him becomes important to you, and what is not so important to Him is not so important to you. And make His priorities and desires, your own! I desire a life of intimacy with God! Do you? :)
Euny.
Connected
Trust me. For a moment (and in fact I personally feel they still do), completely ripped my favorite old time Backstreet Boys apart. I completely agreed with Simon. They looked cute together but they just UGH. Rip other songs la, why backstreet boys. Being a used to be fan and follower, I guess I could do a better job. No offense but aye. However the second performance did turn my head around. There were greater emotions, passion, expressiveness. Pretty not bad I must say. Was it because of a comeback from what Simon said? A motivation from a setback? Hmm.
Looking at the finals, they indeed did come a distance.
(And I’m quite attracted by the middle boy and the second from the right.)
There is just this thing about people that intrigues me. Different people, various groups of them, with all a different story to tell. Some similar but still in a divergent way. You see it with their eyes, you hear it from their voices, you feel it with their act and you get it from what they throw at you. Every performance staged to see, you’ll only get the full picture when you’re in there, with them, in their shoes. Marvelous. I love going on a ride.
I can’t deny life is still the greatest show on earth.
Eunice.
D-Morning
It held my breath for awhile or two. You got to be amazed at the talents around. The connection between people and their passion for what they love. Pulling it altogether. Brilliant. Passion nowadays has been diluted with a lower standard. Passion got to mean: This is it.
(Ps. Catch Simon’s face. Priceless. He hardly rushes to comment as he’s always the last to do so.)
Stir it up.
E.
Unseen
This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by you.
God, You understand it all. Stay with me, I come before You in awe. I am willing. Empty me, I want to walk by faith. Take my life, I want to stay right here with You.
Editing In Progress
Building up a veil only allows you to see yourself. Breaking it down makes you see others and the world around you.
To do list for today is to finish 3 pieces of work and do up abit of Investigating Art artwork as well. Koi is coming home after learning that there’s one nearby my place. Whole day home, to do work. Euny, press on! A few more days left! Investigating Art needs to be done by tomorrow and my goal this week is to get all these workload done by Friday night. Frankly, my mind is just playing nuts with me. This sem isn’t as hectic as Year 1. It’s just that Year 2, we need to spend a longer time doing a piece of work. Not as madrush like last sem thou.
Can you believe I looked like that last time? Oh man. I completely changed.
Like, honestly and seriously?
Euny feels so different now. New and ready for greater things. Euny is different! And I’m heading towards the next level! Oh and yes, I love my short hair. I can’t fathom how much I do.
To live for Christ, to live for others.
Eunice.
Grace To Pull Through
Each time He said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)
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But I will rescue you on that day, declares th Lord; you will NOT be handed over to those you fear. I will save you, you will NOT fall by th sword but will escape with your life, because you trust in Me, declares th Lord. (Jeremiah 39:17-18)
Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful. (Hebrews 10:22-23)
You are there when I am down and out – You’re holding me, Your love is so amazing. God, You’ve changed me. Even though I don’t deserve Your love, You look beyond my fault and You showed me mercy. How can I ever thank You enough?
God, it’s not over, it’s not th end. When doubt is strong and my will is weak to even believe again –
Let Your grace walk in.
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I reblogged the same entries again. Words I used to say here just reminded me time from time again that I’m caught in His grip of grace, and I need not fear. When times are tough and things go wrong, when life gets difficult and we’re breaking down, God’s grace. God’s amazing grace. He is still there for me, He always is, beside me.
God has the best future planned for me.
And, I surrender all.
Suddenly by Vicky Beeching’s playing on my Ipod now.
Eunice.
Love Song For A Savior
He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He’ll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we’ll pray,I want to fall in love with You
It seems too easy to call you “Savior”,
Not close enough to call you “God”
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion.
My all time fav from Jars Of Clay, Love Song For A Savior. And I painted till it rained in the early morning night. Time to sleep eunice. It’s a great day ahead! God, teach me to have child-like faith. :)
Euny.
Shelves of Bottles
“You wouldn’t know when. Someday, you’ll just need it.”
This is a bottle; a bottle filled with papers. It’s been a long while since I opened this, this birthday present bottle. (Wait, it’s a jar. I guess.) This was the latest, but one of the greatest unique gifts I’ve received for my birthday this year. Or was it a Christmas gift? Haha. Perhaps both. I’m not too sure since my dear friend mentioned before he doesn’t remember birthdays.
What are on those pieces of papers you might wonder. They are reminders of God’s love, words of encouragements, and maybe some random line that could just bring one a little smile. And who knows when you’ll need them? The thing is, they are always there, in that bottle. (I mean, jar.)
There are shelves of bottles, bottles that contain various things. Perhaps at times, we so happen to pick out the wrong bottle and get stuck in there. Perhaps at times, we just need to know which to pick out from the shelves and open them up. And at times like today, God just reminded me of the jar. (I got it right this time.)
“Your presence speaks louder than words, so just be here and stay with me.”
God, I thank You for Joey. :)
And every other that has always been there for me.
Eunice.
Genius is 1% Inspiration
Most of us live our whole lives without having an adventure to call our own. What is any life without the pursuit of a dream? Remember that the meaning of life is to live it as if it were a work of art. You and I are not machines. When we were young, we started working on this great work of art called ‘own existence’. And if you’re willing to fail interestingly, you tend to succeed interestingly.
There is no discovery without risk and what you risk reveals what you value. And if what you value loses its own value over time, you never really discovered much. Though it wasn’t all that wasted, there is always this possibility much more could have been done and uncovered.
Euny likes to think. Think about anything and everything. More often so what people don’t usually see or think about. Euny likes to imagine. Imagine a whole list of possibilities in every circumstance and impractical ideas for the moment. Euny likes to challenge. Challenge herself against the norm and what she has never done before. Euny likes first times. Because that’s where everything starts. From it comes thoughts, then imaginations, then the challenges.
It just so happen that I’ve been thinking about school work. As much as I can think about the amount of time left, I got to start working faster. Let me list down the things I have to submit for Assessment in 2 weeks time:
Western Painting
4 Paintings (Left touch ups)
1 “Unfinished Breakfast” (Almost done)
1 Final Project: “Celebration” (Started)
Drawing 3
2 Mixed media (Done)
3 Statues (Re-doing)
1 Sketch Book (Started)
1 Final Project: Still Life In Space
Figure Drawing
2 Portraits (Done)
3 Figures (Done)
1 Self Portrait (Almost done)
1 Sketch Book (Done)
Then left with Investigating Art theory artwork + Essay. Digital Time Based Media Stop Motion Video (Rawly). Done with History and Video Production. If I work hard enough every day, I should be able to complete them in time. Not forgetting I have a whole list of “want-to-do”s after that.
Ah and yes, I like this. This is Art. Completely, totally, most awesomely.
99 % Perspiration
Euny.
Every Ounce Of Courage
Do not be pressed by your problems,
Be led by your dreams.
Running through yesterday into tomorrow,
Don’t let it just drift away.
Forget about tying the hands of time,
Give every minute to the One who gave us today.
E.
Running out of ink, not
Life is not a written book you can pick up and read.
It is a journal waiting for you to fill up its pages.
All back to the notebook, notebook, notebook. Notebook is the second closest to my thoughts. Write write write. And I’ll never run out of ink. So many stations, some I can’t stay for long. There isn’t a destination, at least not yet, but there is a ride. On this ride, you meet new people, you face new days, you observe new things, and ponder about everything.
Courage doesn’t always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
“I will try again tomorrow.”
E.
The Big Twitter
At the end of the day, you can either focus on what’s tearing you apart
Or what’s holding you together.
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I find this place like a bigger and longer version of twitter.
Ultimately all my main thoughts still goes into the notebook.
Or just remains in my head. Or already being in me.
U.
A Series Of Unfortunate Events
I did not understood.
I did not knew why.
I did nearly switched off because of the state I was in.
But I prayed and pressed on,
I heard the Word,
I realized all that had been happening,
I started to knew why it happened out of the blue yesterday,
I recognized what was being done.
I chose to do otherwise,
I decided to get out from where I was.
I thought my mind and body was failing,
And that I could not.
But I jumped out of ‘limited zone’.
The headache was gone, and I found strength.
I heard what I desperately needed to hear for a long time.
The series of Unfortunate events turned out a Fortunate one.
Yes, just get rid of it.
Wrecked,
Euny.
Deep Down
Have you ever feared that one day others are going to discover
that you’re not as great as they once thought you were?
Just,
Food for thought.
But the answer is: You are the greatest! You’re awesome, unique, extraordinary and special!
It’s not by what you’ve done, but it’s in your IDENTITY!
U.
Out, In and Stay In
Do you remember the day you decided to take the route you took? The decisions you made and at times when you think back you ponder about how silly you were? Where are you now? How did you start? Why did you do it in the first place? What made you stick with it and through it till now? How do you know your heart’s passion? And decide what you really want?
Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach. To make it big, you need to know your smalls, then you can let your passion run wild. We need to muster every ounce of courage, dare to risk and comeback stronger each time we fall. There are times when a battle decides everything, and there are times when the most insignificant/significant thing can decide the outcome of a battle. So which is you?
And don’t ever a moment ponder about ‘ifs’ or ‘could had’.
You’re not living in the past, you’re living in the NOW.
E.
What’s Your Next Step?
The song that kept ringing in my head the moment I got home. I can’t help but still be amazed at how much a blast today has been! Serving God out of love, joy and a heart of worship, in media and alongside with those awesome peeps, being able to be at service celebrating His goodness – What more can I ask for?
Surely things like school work do come to mind. The need for balance, yet really living LIFE (Living In Fulfillment Everyday), ultimately walking side by side with God in all I think and do. I can’t help but feel so blessed and loved by all God has done and given! From then and now, and how far I’ve come. And yes, I’m going to work harder and I’m just going to keep getting better and better! :)
I’m loving Sound more and more! :) And it doesn’t stop here!
Cause I know there’s got to be another level
Somewhere closer to the other side
And I’m feeling like it’s now or never
Can I break the spell of the typical
Voice Out.
Euny.
Those Were The Days
What are you up against every day?
The Summer girl with Autumn leaves all around
And she held her Letters from war.
Quit It Dude
A smile is a universal language. Pros and Cons. A lot to talk about in there. But you know, even if they say Life is a masquerade, even when every face on earth places on a mask – you don’t have to put on one. Because know that at least I am true to you.
Would you go through to the end of things with sincerity? Dare to miss and dare to be lost; Dare to return and have deeply felt. And while all of these deeper impulses swirl around inside, you begin to realize you don’t have limits – just the limits you want to have. It wasn’t that she can’t – She tried, was trying, is trying, and all you needed to do was give a little more time and believed in her.
God spoke to me before on what pastor preached today. God told me we are all people of faith, be it believers or not. For instance, we have faith that the bed won’t fall on us when we sleep on it at night, (or if you sleep on the floor, faith that the ground won’t collapse on you and into your neighbor’s room.)
I believe God wanted me to hear both Youths and Young Adults messages for a great purpose.
Your Calling is still Calling.
So I say, use me as You will
Help me shine for You.
Eunice.
For The Love Of Photography
Seems like the more I listen, the more I hear people talking about the gear, the business of photography, the widgets. Let us not forget the simple love of photography.
I understand why there’s so much rhetoric in our industry about the business of photography and the gear and the gadgets. There is the common stereotype that most creative people aren’t good business people. There is fear. Gear is easier to talk about than vision. Exposures are exact, the camera dials have numbers. There is a ‘right’ answer to many of these questions.
But where is your love of pictures? Where are your actions that back this up?
Can you pick up a book of photographs and get lost in it?
Can you walk around with your iPhone or Android or your point and shoot or whatever and take 100 pictures knowing that they’ll never be for a client or a portfolio?
Do you love hunting for pictures?
Will you stay up late or get up early for pictures?
Do you sometimes ‘see’ life as a photograph?
It’s different for all of us, but when you can take a break from all the chatter, remind yourself–as often as you can–why you love photography.
– 4th Aug 2010, Chase Jarvis Blog
Oscar Mike ET-A Massive Overload
“Your Calling is Calling.
And Faith shall be your eyes.” – God
My favorite place to watch videos. And today I’ve caught tons of them. Totally amazing. And now, thinking of a story, need to scriptwrite my homework out. Thinking thinking thinking. One way to spell Eunice is T-H-O-U-G-H-T-S. I love thoughts, this that, whatever. They keep my brian going. Images, lines, words, ideas, visions, explanations, perspectives flying across. I love this brain God gave me. God told me today I got to be a church without walls, but a church WITH floors. Because my foundation is on a rock! On Jesus Christ!
And Impact Live should have typography depth of field like this!! Makes so much difference from the usual texts nowadays. Camera in After Effects rocks yoz. The best thing that every happened to me in the journey of AE so far. Second on the list will be Motion blur.
On the way home I was thinking about, what really makes a leader. “Leaders goal: YET – don’t become an island; recognize your need for people; reach out to others; Extend beyond yourself!” says Pastor Brian Houston. As a leader, what do you want to see your sheeps become? What do you hope to hear from your lifegroup members at the end of the day? Every moment counts, every second is time.
Okay. Random. I LOVE BAND OF BROTHERS. Just a random thought while I jumped on my bed for 5 seconds not too long back.
A thumb-drive stores memories. MBs or GBs, TBs if so. Choices between double clicking your thumbdrive, or leave it sticking in your com or lastly, Ejecting it. There’s another option actually, Reformat. Thoughts ah, thoughts. Massive heavy loads of thoughts in this entry.
Ps. Every paragraph is a different train of thoughts.
“This is the shout of Victory. So stop staying defeated.” – God.
Eunice.
Part of the Brain
When your heart’s afraid, He’s whispering, “Do not fear, My child.”
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I’ve been wondering why do we keep smiles of people,
What’s about keeping smiles? What’s your reason to see another smile?
What happens if they tear?
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God is an amazing artist I tell you. He painted this entire world for you and I. He painted the skies and he painted the trees. He paints what lies beyond your horizon, and your future in which He holds.
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I am so going to catch this I tell you.
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AND DADDY INSTALLED A PAN HANDLE FOR MY NEW TRIPOD! IM A HAPPY GIRL!
All the more reasons to start doing school work.
On a side note, PHOTOGRAPHERS! Where’s our outing huh!
Smiles. :D
Faith 